My Greatest Fear

I saw a friend's facebook status. It said:
"What is your deepest fear?"
I started thinking about it; I wanted to give an answer.
But here's the thing.
I can't give a straight answer.
I mean...I have many fears...but I don't have that ONE fear that has been haunting me for years!
(Except for the vacuum cleaners, (When I was younger, my sister locked me in a room and chased me around with one) I've never really had a life-long fear.)
And then I started thinking about my dreams at night.
I have had many dreams about Satan and how he has haunted or killed me....Chased me around and have taunted me and the people I've been with (in the dream). Being locked in rooms with no exits or being chased and attacked.
For years I have been tormented with these horrible dreams; Being spiritually attacked sense I was young.

But even that....I just could not post that as my worst fear. I know that Jesus is there for me and Satan can't touch me when I have Jesus.
I started thinking again...my worst fear would be not serving Jesus. But AT ONCE that thought was gone from my head. I have made a personal commitment to forever follow Jesus and I have been growing in Him and His Word everyday. (I am currently going through a 30 day devotional focusing on dreams that various people in the Bible had and how they were interpreted. I am also going through Psalms) I have no doubt in my mind that Jesus is my Superhero, and although it's good to realize that people have back slidden, I am not going to spend my life in fear that I won't serve Him. I am going to focus on growing, not possibly loosing. I want a mindset of determination; not fear.

And so...what is my greatest fear? I know where I'm going, what my life is to be focused on, how Jesus can overcome all fears and Spiritual Attacks...so what's left to fear?

I then decided that my greatest fear in life was for the broken; the people that don't know Jesus.
The people covered in shame; the one's locked in chains.
Although, I don't mean for this to be a judgement session (I am NOT BY ANY MEANS perfect or even SOMEWHAT close to the idea of perfect) and I don't mean that I should feel as if I am any better (the Bible says that we are all sinners and that all sin is the same amount no matter the sin in Jesus's eyes,)
But that my biggest fear is that I won't take the opportunities that my Dad has given/is giving me to live for Him and to reach His children that have not found their Eternal Father yet. As previously written in another blog, I got a word from my Dad saying

"I gave you My hands!
 I gave you My feet!
 I am daring you to move,
 Go ahead, and Glorify Me.
 I'm testing Your heart,
 Where nobody sees,
 Go and Love the Un-Loved:
 A Love that is Me."

Two of my brothers (in Christ) preached recently at Youth Group.
They spoke about our generation, and how we (as the body of Christ) need to wake up and STAND UP. How we need to move forward and do what the Lord has us here on Earth to do. They showed scripture on different people in the Bible that were called to "Stand Up" in obedience and Serve God. We as the Body need to do the same. They said "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the Called!"
I then later got my own word, saying
"Live everyday in Missions as if it's your last day here on Earth."
(think about all of this)
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Does this seriously not all fit together? If that's not enough for you, here's one last thing that ties it all up.
It's simply the name of this blog as a entirety:
Psalm 26:2-3
Examine me, God, from head to foot,
      order your battery of tests.
   Make sure I'm fit
      inside and out

  So I never lose
      sight of your love,
   But keep in step with you,
      never missing a beat."

And so my biggest fear?
That I won't live out this word. That I won't STAND UP everyday and live as if it's my last day to do my Dad's missions work here on Earth. That when an opportunity arises...I'll let fear become of me...and I'll let it pass me by.
When I get to Heaven, I want to look into my Dad's eyes and with tears streaming down our faces hear Him say:

"Well Done Good and Faithful Servant."


-As Christians we need to "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation." (Mark 16:15)
--We need to Stand Up; Obey Him; Find Joy in it; And live everyday in missions as if it's our last day here on Earth.

"Lord. Forgive me. It is just as much living out Your word as it is Learning it. I pray that I will obey You and find Joy in doing it. Lord. Bless those who have not found You yet. Soften there hearts and send them our way. I also pray that we as the Body of Christ would Stand up and walk forward. That we would seek the lost, pray for the broken-hearted, and that You would rise up a generation with self-less Faith. I know, God, that there is nothing that we could do to change Your mind about us. Thanks for Your Mercy, Forgiveness, and Love.
Your Child,
Laura"

P.S. Here's a link to a new, but incredible song that fits
http://ihopkcmusic.bandcamp.com/track/its-my-joy-to-love